Dedications xii
Prologue: Two Lunches with my Father xiv
All These Beloved Books 1
Memoir I 2
Joshua Was Gone 3
Memoir II 6
The Wind Is Loud 7
Memoir III 8
Memoir IIIi 9
Memoir IIIii 10
The Pool, 2019 11
Memoir IV 13
Proper Identification 14
Joy 16
“if this was a different kind of story id tell you about the sea” 17
Memoir V 19
Taharah 20
Memoir VI 21
Twenty-three Facts about Joshua’s Death 22
Memoir VII 23
Dear Mr. Pennypacker 24
Commas 25
Joshua’s Birthday 26
Pottstown Mercury, 1972 28
Memoir VIII 30
Memoir IX 31
Memoir IXi 32
History of Fingers 33
Odo 36
Theory 38
Phoenixville, 2020 41
The Centaur 43
Giant Bird 44
Memoir X 46
On Similes 47
Comes With 48
Two Photographs 50
Memoir X 51
Memoir XII 52
Memoir XIII 53
The Field 54
Your Are a Field of Little 62
Memoir XIII 63
Memoir XIV 64
This and That at the Frick 65
How to Sleep 66
Memoir XV 67
Memoir XVI 69
Catskills Poem 70
The Camels 71
Memoir XVI 72
Two Shabbats with Paul Celan 73
Memoir XVII 75
Northport 76
Syntax, 2022 78
Joanne Dies, 2017 79
Memoir XVIII 80
Jewish Cento, 1957 81
Epilogue: Mensch 84
Memoir Cento 87
Memoir Cento i 90
Memoir Cento ii 92
The Cake 94
Notes 97
Acknowledgments 101
Offering an intimate account of intergenerational grief, Miller Oberman's new collection of poetry, Impossible Things, explores his experiences as both a transgender child and father. Oberman weaves in passages from his own deceased father's unpublished memoir to engage with the mysterious drowning of his eldest brother, Joshua, at age two, a tragedy that cast a shadow over his childhood. He depicts his own youth and parenthood in the context of his father's trauma, employing queer and trans theory and experimental poetic forms to challenge and expand discourse around fatherhood and masculinity. Oberman moves beyond an attempt to solve the mystery of Joshua's death and interrogates how much we can ever know about our forebears or understand their impacts on our lives. Impossible Things offers a necessary intervention into the well-worn terrain of fatherhood/boyhood memoir and functions as a living elegy, communicating with the past, the dead, and the unknowable while speaking to the possibilities for healing intergenerational trauma.